questions

why am i here? the transition spot, i'd like to assume..yerp, i've made my decision..though it's not the most i prefer..but we dont always get what we wish for rite? what do i lose? some good future opportunities, yes..what do i gain? the rightful way of living my life, i'm certain..let's just pray that there're more great things to follow..

if this is the way, then dear Allah, let me live through it with robins singing and roses blooming..

and yes..currently i'm badly missing someone..

i need therapy

Currently in desperate need of self-esteem boosting therapy..dont have any idea of why i keep looking down at myself..perhaps past regrets still shadows my imagined future..i need self confidence..i need to not needing someone for things i should be doing on my own..i need a chance..

And when it comes to having the right chance to right the wrongs right before me, i am not able to grab it due to some unforseen circumstances..i need a black rose..usually given to someone going for a war and not expected to come back.. i am not going for a war, and i am expected to come home..but ironically i need a decision that will lead me forward and not to look back and regret..