i need therapy

Currently in desperate need of self-esteem boosting therapy..dont have any idea of why i keep looking down at myself..perhaps past regrets still shadows my imagined future..i need self confidence..i need to not needing someone for things i should be doing on my own..i need a chance..

And when it comes to having the right chance to right the wrongs right before me, i am not able to grab it due to some unforseen circumstances..i need a black rose..usually given to someone going for a war and not expected to come back.. i am not going for a war, and i am expected to come home..but ironically i need a decision that will lead me forward and not to look back and regret..