mr guard

dah lame nak tulis..tp xtertulis2 gak..tula...layan teka imej nye pasal la ni..nothing important actually..tp selalu teringat..there's this one security officer(pakgad) kat opis ni..dah tua pakcik tu..hmm..tahla cane diorg amek gak org yg dah berumur jd guard kan..patutnya fungsi guard ni sama mcm polis gak..so kena la yg masih muda n tegap..

back to the story,aku ni memang xleh tgk org2 tua yg kena kerja ni..jadik cam sayu sgt hati..dok fikir,knapa diorg masih bekerja dlm umur yg mcm tu kan..patutnya dlm usia mcm tu diorg tgh rehat2 kat umah, bykkan beribadah..main dgn cucu2..ataupon kalo mcm mat saleh tu diog rajin travel..tp tula..tatau la knapa kan..aku menahan diri dari tnya kat pakcik tu..mane tau,mungkin ade isu sensitif ke kan..

tp mmg ksian sgt rase..terbayang kalau babah aku..babah pon dah berumur..tp aku akan pastikan usia tua dia dihabiskan dgn berehat(walaupun dia mmg x suka dok diam)..maknanya xyah lagi keje..

there was one sunday afternoon..i was on my way back from souq..after breakfast picnic with my dear friends..lalu kat boulevard..nampak pakcik tu tgh berjalan kat jmbatan tu..dr kat souq lagi dah nmpak dia..lunch kot..sbb selalunya kitorg kat site ni lunch kat mof nye cafe..tp sunday kan..gov mana bukak..mase nmpak dia tgh jln tu i was at the middle lane..n masa tu mcm x terfikir sgt..tp bila dah lepas tu baru terfikir.."ya Allah, jauhnye pakcik tu jalan"..drpd site office kitorg ke souq tu nearly 1km..mgkin x jauh bagi kita yg muda n sihat ni..tp bayangkan pkcik yg dah berumur nearly 70thn tu..

since then aku rase bersalah sgt..kalaulah aku cepat berfikir sikit dari awal,i will definitely give him a ride..ksian sgt..bila tringat mesti mata bergenang..pakcik tu masih bekerja di site kami ni..pg2 bila dtg keje n bila nak balik ptg2 msti dia akan tegur..kdg2 borak2 sket..dia pon peramah..n suka bertanya..walaupon kdg2 bila "ada angin" aku mcm mls nak brckp esp pagi2 kan,haha,tp aku lyn gak..that's the least i can do utk hburkan hati tua dia..

aku anggap dia mcm atuk..aku pon dah takde atuk lagi..kedua2 atuk dah kembali ke rahmatullah..mungkin dia xda keluarga,xda anak,xda cucu..x kesahla..byk sgt andaian aku ni..mungkin dia suka2 nak keje..most importantly i did n will continue doing what i can..just as what a daughter and a granddaughter would do..org tua kan..sensitif sket..

i pray to Allah to bless him will good health and that we wouldn't have to continue with the job..
amin..

turning point?

it's been a while..haven't been writing much lately..nothing new..work, as usual.there are times when i can't even sit at my place for more than a minute..but there are also daaayyss when i have nothing to do besides surfing the internet from 8-5.

i thought i've made a concrete decision on not pursuing my part 2 in architecture..but lately there's someting at the back of my head came crushing into my peaceful sleeps..who am i actually? what have i achieved after graduated? i have a job,yes..a good income,yes..but deep down i know i'm not good at anything..i need something to master..

n i can painfully admit that i've not been doing well during my studying years back then..it's been lingering around in my head since but i'm just too ego to admit n correct it..but something made think bout it seriously now..i need to go back to studying n prove that i can do well..that i shall have something to be proud of someday..